Genesis 32 (A New Hope)

There are some things that come around unexpectedly that are good.
There are some though that can revisit pain.
Some of these take away the important things in life.
Like sleep.
Sometimes when you think you're over something,
it takes one of these revisits to realise you're not.
Those things can be really, really, really annoying.
I don't like not knowing stuff.
I think we would all prefer to know more than we do.
The price of that though is knowing stuff we wish we didn't.
A bit cryptic tonight.
Sorry.
Sort of.
An event of some drama re-entered my cosy little world of joy last night.
I wish it didn't.
But it did.
Grrrr.
If you were to create a recipe for a restless night you would include either
Young children.
Crumbs in the bed.
One or two too many coffees.
Or a brain spin just before bed time.
Oh or too much KFC for tea.
That was the problem.
New outlet opened yesterday.
Couldn't resist the Variety Bucket.
Soooooo much chicken.
Soooooo much grease.
Heaven in cardboard with a soggy bottom.
Phew for plastic bags.
There you go problem solved.
Next.

Genesis 32
So Jacob becomes Israel.
In the midst of preparing to meet the man who said he hated him last time they were together, he fights an angel.
Jacob was aware of why Esau hated him.
He knew he had been bad and done wrong.
I'm guessing he realised that Esau would enter the picture before he left Laban's land to return home.
What a massive decision.
Faith in God high at this point of decision making.
He knows God and knows God is with him.
Which makes Jacob's lack of faith earlier amazing.
(Yes I know I just said he had high faith.)
He scares easy.
He forgets about what God has done, can do and said He will do.
Encouraging for me.
Because there is no way I have anything like Jacob's relationship with God.
Yet there are signs we both make similar errors in judgment about God.
I look at my ability and what I can do.
It's a brief look.
Forget what God can do through me.
And panic.
Muck up.
Get stuff wrong.
Get stuff right as well.
Hopefully I do more of the latter.
Jacob did.

I am more easily lead to look at what Jacob and others do wrong.
Maybe we all do.
Saying someone did something wrong can sometimes make me feel better about myself.
I need to be really careful.
Focus on what people do right despite the wrong.
Encourage if possible.
And learn.
Turning negatives to positives has to be better.